ANNE SAYS

Have at it

2010-02-07T09:58:00.001-08:00

http://www.formspring.me/anneroco

BLAH!

2009-12-28T09:05:00.001-08:00

anneroco.tumblr.com

Talent knows now age

2009-12-27T10:42:00.000-08:00

I wish I could play like that! Ahahah :[

Thank You!!!

2009-12-25T16:31:00.001-08:00

To my family for making Christmas Christmas :]
Jenwinn for all her sexy gifts and belly button rings. I finally changed mine ahaha
Marvyn Anthony for my gold locket and beautiful bracelet...for continuing to put up with my shenanigans and being the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for&Thank you to your family as well for inviting me to spend Christmas with them and for the awesome gifts they gave. That caught me off guard.

&&To everyone else...I hope you had a very Merry Christmas!

My Golden Locket...

2009-12-23T22:58:00.000-08:00

Courtesy of my wonderful boyfriend...

An early Christmas...because I think I might have work that day :[

P.S.

Movies movies movies! This one was hilarious.

I'm over it

2009-12-22T22:24:00.000-08:00

1. Last minute Christmas shopping with the lola, little brother&boyfriend.
2. KFC for dinner.
3. Avatar in IMAX...what a GREAT movie.
4. I'm making another beanie...because it's freezing outside.
5. I hope people like what I got them >.<
6. Nothing like pay day to ease the damage of buying ahaha.

2009-12-21T23:33:00.000-08:00

She's gonna make a great big sister :]

I Might Say It's Your Fault

2009-12-20T13:04:00.000-08:00

Because I know you could've done more. oh you're so naive yet so...You're such an ugly thing, for someone so beautiful.

1. It's true...nothing's good enough anymore.
2. Pay attention!
3. Mcdonalds is sooo bad for you -.-
4. I don't wanna work today :[
5. I'm excited to give gifts!

Dear Life...

2009-12-19T10:07:00.000-08:00

Last night I lost sleep thinking about everyone who's ever played a part in my story...all the villains and heroes that I've known. Some I miss, some I'm better off without. I started a new chapter not too long ago. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do...but I did it.

P.S.
Happy belated birthday dad...

2009-12-18T15:32:00.000-08:00

1. Jenwinn&Kris' birthday party tonight.
2. Anika's piano Recital tomorrow.
3. Sinead's birthday dinner.
4. Shout out to you December babies!
5. Happy happy birthday.
6. Christmas is next week!
7. I've got more shopping to do.
8. My boyfriend is the sweetest :D

Baby Chloe...

2009-12-18T01:04:00.000-08:00

WELCOME TO THE FAMILY!<3

Pardon the make up...I had competition that day haha.

2009-12-16T22:03:00.000-08:00

1. Someday my Prince will come.
2. Grilled chicken sandwiches!
3. Lions! :]
4. Work work work.
5. Cindy Lu Who.
6. 2nd place.
7. No show...not surprised.
8. Hey you...I'm tired.
9. Pros and Cons.
10. Change of heart.
11. Trouble up ahead.
12. Here we go.
13. Brace yourself.
14. I'll keep you my dirty little secret.

After All Is Said And Done

2009-12-15T10:11:00.000-08:00

Dear blogspot,

Today I overslept and now I'm at home literally chillin because it's so cold. I haven't blogged although I always want to make time to. Today I went on my myspace...I haven't been using that thing much either and I came across the infamous "truth box" that blew up my junior/senior year? I had that thing up there for a while but then I took it down after I got tired of all the pointless comments. You know...stuff like that is like an invitation for people to come talk shit and not get caught. It's not like any of them said it to my face or anything although I wish they would've. But anyways...I read over the 4 pages of comments I had. Some people were nice...some people were idiots. But whatever...I do enjoy a good laugh every now and again.

And that's only half a page worth of "truths" ahaha. It's whatevers. I'm not quite sure what triggered this random need to reminisce. It must be because this year is coming to an end. And like I said in 08...09 is gonna be a turning point for me...and low and behold that's just what it was. I don't think I've had so many things change in such little time before. Like if I ran into myself a year ago I wouldn't even recognize that person. Oh my...but you gotta love high school though despite all the non sense ...they're supposed to be one of the best years of your life. And mine was okay ahaha. It's not like I'd go back and do it all over again if I had a choice but I'm glad for what happened then...good AND bad because they make today seem more worthwhile. I don't think much about reputation. I've been called every name in the book. At first it sucked...you know the whole pride thing gets in the way. But now it doesn't feel like anything because I've already got everything I need...everybody else is just extra. Forgive. Forget. Hello 2010...I wonder what you've got in store for me.

P.S. RE-POST! I wrote this blog on December 7, 2008

"You know, for someone as anti-relationship as I am, I'll admit that I can't help but fall inlove with the whole concept of falling inlove and still somehow absolutely loathe it. Does that make sense? One day I'll tear down all the walls that I've built and give in only to find that nothing is what I expect it to be. Love is, in many ways, the most imperfect thing in the world, but for now I'd rather stick to my own epic romance, fall head over heels little dream, and not let anyone ruin that image with reality.

Because I know the truth, but I don't necessarily accept it. Love is complicated and there's no point in trying to understand it, it is what it is. Awful, beautiful, painful, wonderful... everything you could possibly feel all at once. It's just there. You lose all sense of right and wrong and end up acting like some goofy idiot, doing and saying things so out of your character that you actually lose who you really are. And even in knowing this, people continue to take that leap. Why? Because love is a universal need, and without it, we are nothing. And when we refuse to let it into our lives, our hearts harden like stone, numb to everything both good and bad. And even though you miss out on all the pain it can cause, you also give up the chance to experience something so out of this world beautiful that there couldn't possibly be any right words to describe it."

whatta cheeseball -.-

2009-12-14T10:57:00.000-08:00

8 months today AND I have a new baby cousin. What a great way to start the morning.

2009-12-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

I don't know why things are the way they are. I mean, if you stop and pay attention to the way everyone is running around like crazy looking for that something that'll make them wanna stay put, it's a circus out there. Everyone wants this....everyone wants that. If you get caught up in that frenzy...nothing's ever gonna be good enough. No matter what you find, something will always be missing. People are just funny that way.

Old School.

2009-12-07T22:38:00.000-08:00

Man I miss my hair.

And They Say...Why, Why?

2009-12-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

Tell em that it's human nature.

"I asked for strength, and God gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom, and God gave me problems to learn to solve. I asked for prosperity, and God gave me a brain and brawn to work. I asked for courage, and God gave me dangers to overcome. I asked for love, and God gave me people to help. I asked for favors, and God gave me opportunities. I received nothing I wanted. I received everything I needed."--Hazrat Inayat Khan

P.S.
You got a fast car...
I want a ticket to anywhere.
Maybe we make a deal.
Maybe together we can get somewhere...

Any place is better.
Starting from zero got nothing to lose.
Maybe we'll make something.
But me myself I got nothing to prove.

...You got a fast car.
But is it fast enough so we can fly away?
We gotta make a decision...
We leave tonight or live and die this way.

I remember we were driving, driving in your car
The speed so fast felt like I was drunk.
City lights lay out before us..
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder.
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone.

2009-12-03T23:35:00.000-08:00

1. Jenwinn and Sammy day.
2. Shooters for the first time.
3. Won a fat hamster :]
4. Baby met up with us there.
5. Nogales to pick up Kris.
6. Saw Momo. Saw Jordan. Saw everybody.
7. Baby went home.
8. Went to Taco bell.
9. Jenwinn's for a bit.
10. They took me home.
11. End of the day!

I will miss...

2009-12-02T07:49:00.001-08:00

my black hair :[

but something told me it was time for a change. Hello red head.

1. WE ARE CREATURES OF HAVOC.
2. It's clear to me that pride is everything now.
3. I rearranged some of my priorities.
4. Taking care of myself is at the top of the list.
5. I'm tired of the inconsistency I get from everyone.
6. What a hypocritical thing to say...I know. Bad Anne.
7. Today I packed my bags and headed off to Yorba Linda where I will be spending the rest of the night and all of tomorrow.
8. My family misses me.
9. &I miss being missed.
10. This week someone drove all the way from Riverside to visit me at work.
11. Company on a not so awesome day is always nice.
12. If it's the thought that counts, then maybe you should think harder.
13. I can very well distinguish the difference between real effort and dog food.
14. Girls do talk a lot.
15. It's good having someone there to listen though.
16. NO ONE'S ever treated me this way either.
17. Oh well forgive and forget...not as simple as it sounds.

Goodnight blogspot.

2009-11-30T11:57:00.001-08:00

Part Two:

2009-11-26T15:02:00.000-08:00

I would add this on to my previous Turkey Day post but blogspot hates me right now so a new post it is. Btw I forgot to thank everyone who sent me Happy Thanksgiving texts this morning. I appreciate the love :]

1. 3 hours till I have to go to work.
2. Gonna buy the Wicked tickets my next pay check fersure.
3. Saving up for gas, food, and a place to crash for a day.
4. Gotta learn to love the freeways so baby won't have to do all the driving.
5. &The countdown begins!
6. My first official road trip<33

Happy Thanksgiving!

2009-11-26T09:06:00.000-08:00

My work hours are crazy this week because of the New Moon madness and unfortunately I will be spending my Thanksgiving at work...selling popcorn and such. But it's alright. I'm game...I need a good paycheck for Christmas anyways :]

Things I'm thankful for!

1. My family...cause even though we're not exactly like the Brady Bunch over here...I still love them lots! They are a big part of who I am...especially the Titos and Titas...thank you for your support and advice! You guys keep me going<3

2. My friends! Old ones...new ones...I'm not gonna name names because this would take forever but they should know who they are anyways...especially the ones that've been there with me since before we knew what periods were bahaha I love you guys. You all are like a second family to me I just wanted to say that I couldn't have gotten through more than half the things I've gone through if it weren't for you. Don't think that that's easy to forget cause it's not! You guys are my inspiration forreal and I miss getting to hang out! I've been M.I.A. and it sucks....but I'll make it up to you...promise! Thank you for making me who I am<33

3. The boyfriend! 7 months and going strong despite the arguments and non sense every couple goes through. You were an unexpected blessing...one that I'm thankful for everyday though :] You've literally forced me out of the state I was in before and made me realize how much more I'm capable of. I don't know where I'd be without you. But I'm not about to get all mushy and out myself on blogspot ;] So I'll keep this nice and simple. I love you and thank you for EVERYTHING you've done. I've gotten this far from where I used to be because of you. You mean the world to me as cliche as that sounds. And I want you to know that I'd walk any mile for you...take it to the limit and then some because you're such a badass I can't help but love you like that ;]

4. I'm thankful to still be alive and well! Although I tend to complain...I'll take a step back and realize that I do love life. And I'm lucky to have the things I have and to be surrounded with the people I'm surrounded with.

Oh my. I could go for days. But I don't feel like being a complete cheese ball today. So to everyone else...enjoy your Thanksgiving. Eat lots of food! Bahaha stay safe and take care!

2009-11-23T12:17:00.000-08:00

Trish's Birthday

Always an adventure with him and his friends.

2009-11-22T14:34:00.000-08:00

Make sure all those mother fckin boys know...

....he loves me so.

2009-11-19T18:44:00.000-08:00

Johnny Depp= Sexiest man alive...again. Congrats!
What a blah week it's been!
I'm so ready for the Holidays.
Planning my trip up north!
I really can't wait.
Decisions, decisions.
I need some time away from everything and everyone.
I'm only armed...not dangerous.
I'd still keep my distance though.
I'm feeling very vulnerable.
I don't like it at all.

Hello Kitty

2009-11-16T20:56:00.000-08:00

Pictures from the exhibition

P.S.

I wanna watch Wicked again :[

2009-11-15T17:12:00.000-08:00

1. Night out with the girls.
2. Hang outs with Jenwinn.
3. Eat eat eat!
4. Got my first client.
5. Katie's Debut.
6. Saw Nick! &A lot of old familiar faces.
7...months with the boyfriend<3
8. Work tonight -.-

2009-11-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

"I already know my girl is beautiful. I don't need other guys asking for her number to know that."

Papa Papa Paparazzi

2009-11-07T21:03:00.001-08:00

2009-11-02T22:28:00.000-08:00

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway. If you are successful , you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway. Give the word the best you have, and it may never be enough; give the world the best you have got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway."--Mother Teresa

2009-10-28T22:22:00.000-07:00

I think for once I can actually admit that I'm running out of things to say...and I mean that as in...I don't want this page to be just some means of entertainment for people who have nothing else to do but browse around. If you're interested in a real update I'd rather it not be via blogspot. Let's have a chat and I'll fill you in on what's good. &By the way...I have officially switched from AT&T to T-Mobile...so my old number is kaput. Ask me for my new one and we'll go from there.

Goodnight blogspot.

2009-10-27T18:10:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARVYN ANTHONY!!! I LOVE YOU.

2009-10-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

I got him new shoes to play in...

What a cool cup that was&wowzers my hair is thick.

Now we're singing Taylor Swift songs on the phone.

2009-10-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

It's going to be a place where only the things you want to happen, would happen...

Work till 2:30 in the morning on Saturday. Had my first 8 hour shift on Sunday. Watched Where The Wild Things Are with the boyfriend and his friends on Monday. Went to school today. Saw my friend for two minutes. Picked up the boyfriend after he went biking. Dropped him off at the Village. Went home. Nothing really out of the ordinary. I'd say the highlight of the week was my paycheck. All work and no play makes Anne a dull girl. I need some flavor back in my life.

2009-10-18T21:51:00.000-07:00

"I've learned the dignity of being loyal to something you believe in, of holding onto it, above all else. Of believing, without question, that it will carry you home. "

2009-10-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

Driving in the rain is so not the business. School was awesome though, as usual. I had a lazy eye...bahaha...Ihop with the boyfriend afterwards. 6 cool months today. Good stuff<33

Competition Day At School:

2009-10-13T21:09:00.000-07:00

October Theme...we decided to turn our model into a scarecrow. Hair, make-up, costume, and props all done by me and my team mates. Here are the results. Props to my group members...Marissa, Abby, and Monica. We did amazing guys :]

Dear Blogspot...

2009-10-11T22:06:00.000-07:00

I finally got my car.

But other than that
1. I'm relieved that I'm not scheduled to work as much this week.
2. I watched Couples Retreat with my boyfriend today. It was alright.
3. Drove him around for a change.
4. Overall I'd say that it was a good day.
5. Oh yes...and I also got to see the little one...

Girl's Night Out:

2009-10-09T21:49:00.000-07:00

1. Sally's.
2. Home.
3. Non stop giggling.
4. Mess making.
5. Food!
6. "Give him your number."
7. Save the dancing for next time :]
8. Love school.
9. Love the people.
10. I need more days like this.

Good night!

2009-10-08T17:56:00.000-07:00

"The trouble with talking nicely is that, unfortunately, people don't hear you until you scream."

I watched A Walk To Remember for the millionth time.

Cat Nap:

2009-10-07T07:18:00.001-07:00

My Boys<3

2009-10-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

"Life is funny,baby, and that's no joke."

2009-10-03T06:46:00.001-07:00

After today my weekend officially starts! Zombieland yesterday with my baby and his friends. They played tag in the movie theaters haha. Got some food after. Went to my house, then to Evan's. Then the bowling alley. What a day! I wish I had my Fridays back for reals.

P.S.

Favorite picture ever (stolen off of his facebook)

Oh my...I've got a mighty fine boyfriend.

2009-10-02T07:39:00.001-07:00

"I don't want everything to add up to the perfect equation. I want mess and chaos. I want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me. I want to feel passion and heat and madness. I want it all."

Baby I love your ways

2009-10-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

First free Friday in a while.
Minus school of course.
Pay day please!
No more spending...
Hahaha I mean it.
I'm exhausted.

"Why won't you let me be a princess for halloween?"
"Because you're already a princess."

Gotta love those "awww" moments.
Hooray for boyfriend time.
I'm not gonna have that today :[
Sucks...

To Whom It May Concern:

2009-09-29T07:52:00.000-07:00

1. Leaving me was probably the best thing you ever taught me.
2. I wouldn't have known right from wrong had you not treated me the way that you did.
3. I laugh harder now.
4. I'm going strong.
5. I still hate when people apologize for something they meant to do or will end up doing again anyways.
6. I'm naive though and I believe in giving chances.
7. I've been taken advantage of way too many times because of it.
8. But all that doesn't matter now.
9. I'm going places...and I'm leaving all the bad memories behind.
10. I finally found the good in goodbye.

Like No One's Watching You

2009-09-28T11:17:00.001-07:00

I'm in for a ride, and I'm trying to make the most of every moment, but the days seem to be going by like nothing, that sometimes I lose track of time. The changes that have occurred over these past few years are becoming more apparent everyday. And when all is said and done...I'm just glad to be where I am right now...

I'm Calling Out To

2009-09-27T13:47:00.000-07:00

1. You September babies!
2. Tomorrow my bestie cousin is turning 6 :]
3. &I still owe Nora a birthday present.
4. October's coming around...
5. Yay to my baby's birthday month<3
6. AND Michael Jackson's This Is It hitting up the movie theaters
7. I already bought my tickets.

Tired&Uninspired:

2009-09-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

1. Yay to more sleep.
2. Boo to arguing.
3. Don't forget your manners.
4. I'm cranky.
5. Don't push it.
6. I want to hop on a plane and go somewhere far.

Today I....

2009-09-20T00:26:00.000-07:00

Gave my boyfriend a haircut and....
GOT A RAISE AT WORK!
Mhm...thank you Saturday. Life is grand.

1. Everything is coming together quite nicely.
2. Hard work does pay off.
3. There's a lot more to smile about now a days.
4. Oh goodie.
5. I'm saving up for something big :]

Work again tomorrow. MONDAY is my WHOLE day off. Finally!

I haven't been listening

2009-09-16T19:52:00.000-07:00

Nothing worth having comes easy.

5 MONTHS NOW

2009-09-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

I love you lots cowboy.

[SIDE NOTE:]

- I enjoy taking naps, and I will be needing lots of them these next few months.
-I bowled today with my baby and his friends, everyone was pro, except for me...but it's okay! No one was mean about it. I knocked down a split and they should've paid me 8 dollars each because that was the bet -.- Hahaha but it's okay! I'll bug them about it later :]
-My life will be good from here on out, I promise.
-I love what I do because I do what I love.
-I got free stuff and a certificate from work because I'm doing well! Selling lots of stuff and making bank...you know all that mess :]
-I'm overly stressed! But it's only because I'm anxious to get to where I need to be already.
-I'm constantly thinking about my future and I've finally decided to throw all expectations out the window. Whatever happens happens.
-I've met a lot of really nice people.
-My faith in humanity is slowly but surely being restored hahah let's just put it at that.
-There are a lot of changes that I'm still getting used to.
-But I'm lucky to have the things I have now.
-I'm happy. I'm inlove. I'm hungry! I need sleep :]

Good night world.

Heartless?

2009-09-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

KANYE IS COLD BLOODED

&A self-indulgent weenie. I love the music! No doubt, but I can't back what he did. There's just no excuse for it so yeah. Everyone's talking about it! Hahah couldn't help myself. So there...Kanye should stay away from public events.

24 Patches.

2009-09-12T23:30:00.000-07:00

Friday...school from 8:30 to 5:00...work from 6:00 to 1:15...AM.
Saturday...school from 8:30 to 5:00. Drove to boyfriend's house right after.

He bought two new fishes today. He wanted to give them pirate names. So we have Patches (Cause I like names that start with the letter P) And 24...because he says so?

Work again tomorrow...Blah! I'm sleepy.
Goodnight blogspot!

P.S.

I just need a little consistency that's all...

Goodbye Summer:

2009-09-09T07:31:00.001-07:00

School is gonna
take over my life.

Whats Up:

2009-09-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

Long day at work yesterday but I finally picked up my paycheck after my shift. Boyfriend and Evan visited me. Then I met up with them after I got out. WEST CO. mall after! More walking around. Baby bought me shoes...oh damnnn :] In purple cause it's my favorite. (Thanks again babe!) Evan's house afterwards. Devon came. We got food. BLAH BLAH BLAH! Tension in the air. Boyfriend Girlfriend shit. Went bowling. Marvyn beat us all. And my entire day shifted from good to bad to horrible to okay to good to great to wonderful to sleepy! Oh well at least it ended on a happy note.

P.S.

"First of all I just wanted to say that you were right about me...about all of it. I just didn't want to hear it, especially from you. I've been waiting my whole life for the right guy and then you showed up and you were nothing like I thought you would be. You're cynical, and cranky and impossible! But the truth is, fighting with you has been the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I think there's a pretty good chance that I'm falling in love with you." Cuteshit.

P.P.S.

1. I have come to a realization that almost nothing goes according to plan.
2. &That sometimes taking a few wrong turns will get you exactly where you need to be.
3. 2009 has been spontaneous, and unexpected.
4. &I'm happy with where I am, even though at times, I think I'm not.
5. Make sense?
6. I want to work hard and laugh even harder.
7. I love my boyfriend even though we hardly ever see things eye to eye.
8. When I panic, I run.
9. But I want to stand my ground.
10. There are things that need to be resolved.
11. I'm gonna let fate take care of what's out of my control.
12. Learning what it means to be responsible is tough.
13. &It pisses me off half the time!
14. But I'm learning so that's gotta count for something :]
15. It's funny how people put the word "baby" after someone's name.
16. ...I love my boyfriend.

Randoms!

2009-09-03T11:22:00.001-07:00

1. Muuuuusstaaaash.
2. "Monkey goes Maceck!"
3. "The cow goes SHAZOO!"
4. Took my baby out for a nice lunch today.
5. Bomb ice tea at the Curry House.
6. Driving range with the boys.
7. Grape Hi Chews.
8. School next week.
9. Swaggerjacker! Hahah (Judic, how I miss you so)
10. Hello Air conditioned rooms.
11. Nora on Saturday!
12. Boyfriend tomorrow!
13. Yay to my favorites<3
Work tomorrow from 9:45-4:30. Entertain me!

2009-09-02T10:59:00.001-07:00

"What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth."

Mobile Photos:

2009-08-31T20:58:00.000-07:00

P.S.

2009-08-30T18:29:00.000-07:00

Work yesterday at 6pm-11:45pm. Pretty hectic! But it was alright. Got home at like 12...knocked out not too long after. Then I had to work again today! 1:00pm-6:00pm. Movies aren't so bad on a Sunday...and the people I worked with were funny, so it was actually a pretty laid back day today. So some familiar faces though!...again. It's always fun running into people :] But yes. I went shopping the other day with my credit card...bahahah. I feel cool. These are the highlights of my weekend. My feet are killing me!

2009-08-29T10:50:00.001-07:00

"If you're gonna ignore me, can you at least sit down next to me and ignore me?"--Shnoookums

I swear, I can never keep a straight face with this guy.

2009-08-27T16:08:00.000-07:00

If you haven't heard the news yet, I've been accepted into a private beauty school, which, to all the people who know me well, is a big freakin deal because it's a dream that's been in the making for years now. Finally things are falling into place! If everything goes according to plan, I'll have my license in 10 months then I can work full time doing what I do best :] And that's not the good part yet, the good part is that I can STILL go back to school...take care of what I need to take care of and pay for it myself. Next week is my last week of REAL vacation because after that I'm off to school Tuesday-Saturday 8:30am-5:00pm...plus I'm keeping my job. So it's gonna be busy! I'm not too worried though. I've got full support from both my family, my friends, and my oh so amazing boyfriend. I can't wait to get started.

On another note though:
1. The free movies are STILL awesome!
2. I'm surprised that people actually read this thing.
3. Life is treating me especially well this year.
4. Girls are funny! ...and nosy :]

P.S.

I began to understand that I could stretch if I wanted to, explore if I dared...escape if I just put one foot in front of the other.

2009-08-25T20:24:00.000-07:00

Make A Face:

2009-08-24T10:13:00.000-07:00

"To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else."
--Emily Dickinson

Theater 11 is going to be to your right.

2009-08-23T08:55:00.001-07:00

ENJOY YOUR MOVIE!

Work yesterday from 9:45-5:00
Came across some quite interesting people.
My co-workers are nice.
After my shift was done I hurried home.
Ate! Cause I was hungry.
Boyfriend stopped by my house after he got off of work.
Then we watched INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS!
I've been watching movies for the past two weeks -.-
But it's all good cause it's FREE :D
And just the other day I got paid to watch one.
It was a one time thing though I'm sure.
No more work until maybe next weekend.
Then...SCHOOL!
So not excited anymore haha.
Just kidding though, it should be fun.
Bestie's birthday is coming up!
I must do something cool for her :]
Anyways, that's pretty much it for now.
Good day. Good night. Good company. I love it.
P.S.

I can't stay mad at him even if I tried.

2009-08-20T22:42:00.001-07:00

It's the search for the time

2009-08-19T21:43:00.000-07:00

...before it leaves without you

1. Work today.
2. Boyfriend picked me up after.
3. Evan's house so he can play ball.
4. Jenwinn's house.
5. Hung out.
6. Talked.
7. Boyfriend picked me up again.
8. Frank&Son to look for a video game.
9. Home again.
10. Chilled.
11. Kill Bill Vol. 2 on Spike T.V.
12. Said bye to boyfriend.
13. Now I'm going to eat.

7 hour shift on Saturday. Keep me entertained :]

Hi welcome to AMC, how can I help you?

2009-08-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

Work yesterday. 5 hours on concession. People are pretty nice. The bus takes forever. Work again tomorrow. Free movies though! I've already watched two :] Blah! Pay day please :[

Can't sleep

2009-08-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

P.S.
I feel defeated again
I’m always losing to myself
I tried to build a better me,
Shack to castle, and it fell down

I had the right intentions
Sometimes my hope envelopes me
And I can’t learn the lesson
Not to send a goldfish to the sea

This matter is mine
Don’t worry I’m fine
This matter is mine.
I’m not going to give it up.

I know what you’ve been thinking
Too soon to empty my cocoon
This butterfy is not ready
Wouldn’t she know better than you

This matter is mine
Don’t worry I’m fine
This matter is mine
I’m not going to give it up.

2009-08-15T23:22:00.000-07:00

Chillin at my house with the boyfriend. 500 days of summer. Taco Bell for some food. Sean's for a bit. Quite an interesting night. Not much to blog about. But on a side note...

Bravo to you! Without even saying a word you ruined what should've been an end to a perfectly good day. All because you lied about something that never even happened. And if you want to attest that then I seriously welcome you to tell me your version of the story when my back isn't turned because I don't understand it. From what I can recall, I don't remember doing anything to you worth being disrespected this way. I don't know what you were thinking, or if you were just trying to be funny at the time, but I wasn't laughing then and I'm still not laughing now. I could care less if you actually do end up reading this and taking it the wrong way. My intention isn't to challenge you...if you don't mind, I'd like to keep things drama free. At least I know the truth and I've got nothing to prove to you...or to anyone else for that matter. I would, however, like to know why you'd ever think that it was okay to do what you did then. You don't know me and you never did. So please...get over yourself and I say that as politely as I possibly can. Just...grow up already.

2009-08-14T22:19:00.001-07:00

I wish you would just take my word for it. There's a reason why the past is the past. I wish you would just let me think on my own now...let me make the mistakes I make, because I know, it's the only way I can learn. There are so many questions you want me to answer, but it would be pointless for me to do so because you only hear what you want and what you think you already know. Sometimes you forget that this is my life so stop putting me down just because I don't handle things the way you would. You seem to think that all this criticism will motivate me to do better, only it doesn't. It just pushes me away from you and makes it harder for me to tell you anything. And it sucks because you're the one I want to run to. I want confide in you. I want you to know me...all of me. But how can you expect to understand who I really am when all you do is pick on the things you don't agree with and tear me down continuously for it? Everyone messes up and everyone goes through their phases. It's how people figure themselves out. I'm not perfect. I don't always make the smartest decisions. And I really can't take back what's already happened, even if I wanted to. I know that I had to deal with what I dealt with to be who I am now and believe me, there's still plenty of room to grow. But I've let things go and I'm looking forward to my future because I have no doubt that it will be different this time around. And if you don't mind, I'd really like for you to be a part of it. So loosen your grip, and let me stand on my own two feet. There's nothing to be afraid of. Even if you let go, I'll still be right here.

2009-08-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

"I have a smokin hot girlfriend."--Marvyn Anthony.
4 Months now with this boy....
&I'm loving every second of it.

P.S.
First day of work today went smoothly.
I'm getting used to taking the bus.
(Sadly, I don't have my own car just yet.)
That will change very soon though, so no worries :]
I wanted to watch a movie today.
But I guess I'll just take a nap, I'm pretty tired.
Dinner at 7 with the boyfriend&my family.
Then bowling alley so I can root for my baby.
Work again on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
School soon! Oh my word.
Gotta be proactive now.

P.P.S.
WATCH THIS!

Crazy good! They're all the same guy multiplied haha. Whatta trip.

Hello Real World:

2009-08-12T09:51:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day I was allowed to register for classes, starting at 8 am so I woke up at the crack of dawn to look at what was available...which was practically...NOTHING AT ALL. Haha stupid Citrus...anyways, I got three totally irrelevant classes, but I share them all with my Silivia so there's my consolation. I start school on the 29th and all my classes are on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Good thing I suppose since I'll have to be taking the bus...and I know that'll take forever! But it's all chill because I'm super excited. This summer has been good to me, and I've been a lazy bum throughout the majority of it...but in a few weeks I'll be busy busy busy! Which is what I like :] So here's my update. Job orientation today! Ah yes...that's life right now...I feel productive :]

Billy Jean:

2009-08-10T22:30:00.000-07:00

Boyfriend: Are you still mad at me?
Me: Are you still gonna be a jerk?
Boyfriend: ...Are you gonna kiss me now?

Well, it's hard to argue with that.

LA with the boyfriend and family for some Korean BBQ...lots of it.

Change of Plans:

2009-08-08T13:44:00.000-07:00

It Still Gets Me:

2009-08-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

2009-08-06T21:18:00.000-07:00

Had my interview and....
I GOT HIRED!

Orientation on Wednesday.

Movies with the boyfriend today.

"I'm really good at 'Guitar Hero,' and I thought maybe I should get a guitar. Then I thought, like, I'm really good at 'Grand Theft Auto.' Maybe I should start beating up hookers."

2009-08-05T13:44:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them.
Hey I don't make the rules around here, people are funny that way...

I'm funny that way.
What can you do huh?

Wavy hair.

P.S.
JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW. WISH ME LUCK!

Summer...

2009-08-03T11:05:00.000-07:00

is almost over :[ How unfortunate, but I still got a few things left to do so I'm hoping that this is how my week will end up going:

Monday: Stay home. Recover. Do Laundry. Sleep! I've got a lot of that to catch up on.
Tuesday: Movies[?]
Wednesday-Thursday: Sleepover at Maddie's (Last hangout before she leaves for college!)
Thursday-Friday: Sleepover at Bestie's house (Cause I haven't seen her since graduation :[)
Saturday-Sunday: San Fransisco with mommy[?]

P.S.
I'll take it from here, thanks.

P.P.S.
Well you know :]

This is not me

2009-08-02T17:16:00.000-07:00

This is not who I am. Once upon a time I knew exactly who that was. Priorities...check lists...things to do. The world around me is spinning out of control. I watch, bewildered and confused. There are too many unfamiliar faces. People coming in, people leaving. Sorry I couldn't stay. Every time is a bad time now. Hold on sweetie, I'll be with you in a minute...So they say. Be patient, but no one's got the time of day anymore. Who are you and what do you want? A little bit here and a little bit there, just enough to get your fix, keep taking till there's nothing left then throw it away, because that's what you do when something becomes useless...no second thoughts, no hesitation, no regrets...just get it out of your way. Out of sight, out of mind. You'd think by now I'd know how everything works. It could be as simple as that...but after all these years, I still don't know how to adjust.

Panda Wolf Boyfriend!

2009-08-01T20:46:00.000-07:00

Painting made by Marvyn Anthony

There babe, an entire blog dedicated to your cuteness. Enjoy. I love you mucho.

Babysitter:

2009-08-01T10:20:00.001-07:00

MY LOVES:

So last night my mom and my aunties decided to have a girl's night out, so I was left at the house to babysit two kiddies and man, it was a very tiring task. I fed them, bathed them, brushed their teeth, TRIED to put on their jammies (took me like 20 minutes cause they kept running around), changed diapers, read them several books, and played multiple games until I finally wore them out enough to put them to sleep. Whew! All of that while I was on the phone with the boyfriend who is still currently sick with tonsillitis (Ah get well soon babe). I knocked out pretty late because the baby kept waking up. I only had, I'd say, about 4 hours of sleep because she also woke up early. It was a very busy Friday night, but it was well spent. Now it's Saturday morning and I look like a zombie from night of the living dead. Haha oh well. Kids...ahh but you gotta love them though :]

P.S. Random Rant:

Perhaps it's only natural to dislike what you don't understand. It's easier to do that than to actually take the time to grasp the concept of something in its entirety and learn to look at it from a different perspective. People need answers, all time, and when they can't get it, they 'll make up their own explanations, whether it be accurate or not, they'll be content with knowing something...anything. In fact, everyone's got so much to say about absolutely nothing at all. Half the things that come up in random conversation don't have any relevance to our own lives. And perhaps I blame it on humanity for having such twisted ideas of amusement. As if we don't already have enough problems of our own, we want to zone in on someone else's too. Call it human nature, but if you ask me, I am tired of my generation. End rant.

P.P.S.

Just breathe :]

Peachy Keen Jellybean:

2009-07-31T15:49:00.000-07:00

Because he literally calls just to say that he loves me :]
ANYWAYS...

Today I took my brother to his girlfriend's house, got lunch, ate and did a whole lot of nothing after that. I fell asleep for a little bit and then woke up, cleaned the kitchen...took my second shower of the day. And now I'm ready to go job hunting once again...*sigh*. Hopefully my luck changes because I'm in an awfully good mood today.

P.S. I like this picture.

P.P.S. Hahah :]

Mmm Watchu Say?

2009-07-31T00:24:00.000-07:00

HIGHLIGHTS:
Citrus again today for orientation.
Rolled in with Jamie.
Blah blah blah.
Weird music played outside.
An hour and 30 minutes later we were out.
Off to West Co. mall.
Another application turned in.
Took Jamie home.
Picked up mommy and brother.
Salo Salo for lunch.
Tomorrow... job hunting.

Mrs. Doodiekins

2009-07-29T22:45:00.000-07:00

"If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above."

Give me your hand darling:

2009-07-29T18:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I took the placement test for Citrus. Took me a good hour to finish math and english, but overall, it was a piece of cake. The whole rest of the day before that was a little hectic. I picked up Jamie from her house so we can go together. We didn't make it to the 3:30 testing so we had to come back for the 6 o clock one. In the meantime, we had to stick around the area. We went to Target and we found out that people have mean staring problems there. Then we went to Carl's JR to grub on some burgers before taking the test. We ended up driving everywhere trying to look for a place to buy one of those parking permits for the day...it cost us 5 dollars to park somewhere for an hour -.- Eww. Anyways, we checked in only to find out that Jamie had a problem with her ID number so she couldn't take the test :[ And she had to end up waiting an hour for me to finish with mine. We weren't allowed to have cellphones in there...so after I got out I walked everywhere looking for her. I bet I looked pretty clueless, but the campus was so small, it really wasn't a problem. We were reunited at the waiting room where we had originally checked in haha so we headed back to my place. That was our day at Citrus, could've been worse, I'm just thankful we made it there in one piece...I'm horrible at directions and there are really scary drivers out there. Anyways, we got back to my place where I dyed her hair...just because I like doing that for people. We talked (a lot) and made a freakin mess. Ahh girls... :] Then I took her home. Phew! That was a lot more driving than what I'm used to. My school is so far from me :[

Today I stayed at home. There was an ed edd and eddy marathon on cartoon network and Peter Pan was on the Disney channel so I caught that before the boyfriend came over. He's very sick :[ And I tried to make him feel better but the best I could do was give him a blankie, lots of water, and hugs. He slept the whole time he was here, but it's okay :] Now he's at home getting his rest. Hopefully he gets well soon.

Tomorrow I have orientation and after that it's off to my aunt's house to babysit.

If I don't get a call this week, I'm gonna have to do more job hunting. That's gonna be how I spend my days for the rest of the summer until I get hired somewhere haha. It sounds sad, but I really want to work. Anyways, that's life so far.

All we care about is talking

2009-07-28T23:01:00.000-07:00

Talking only me and you...

It's irritating at first, then it starts to hurt. Then I remember that they're the ones with the problem...so when I think about it, it's really not that bad after all.

Pardon Me While I Burst:

2009-07-26T12:53:00.000-07:00

"Don't worry about the people who don't worry about you." I won't put in any more effort unless I see some coming from your end.

Per Say:

2009-07-25T13:37:00.000-07:00

Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents?
Already have.

Are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship or just friends?
In a relationship.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Haha hmm...recently.

Was today a good day?
It's still early, so far it's been okay...but it'll get better :]

Are you going anywhere for the summer?
Just out and about.

Are you waiting for anyone to call you?
Nope.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with an A?
Anthony, Marvyn.

Is anyone in love with you?
I hope so.

How's this week?
It's been pretty hectic.

Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
Not a person...a teddy bear...and yes it means a lot to me :]

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Yes...

What are you listening to?
The T.V.

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
Maybe?

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Of course...everyday.

Does anyone hate you?
I'm sure there are a few random people out there :]

Is anything upsetting you right now?
I'm kind of disappointed...

Do you dislike anyone?
Ehh, I just get annoyed, but I don't really seriously dislike anyone.

Does anyone know your password besides you?
Nope, it's a secret.

Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?
Hopefully.

Do you have a song that reminds you of someone?
Yes :]

Are you happy at the moment?
I'm okay...

What was the reason you woke up today?
People are loud over here :[

What did you have for breakfast?
Toast!

Who was the last guy you had a conversation with?
Tito.

If you were at reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
It doesn't matter, I'll love it just the same.

Has the last person you last texted ever kissed you before?
Yes<3

Do you pinky promise still?
Sometimes.

Look to your left, what do you see?
T.V.

Do you text a lot?
Not as much as I used to.

What did you last have to drink?
Water.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
Hmm...I'm good for now.

What are your thoughts about long distance relationships?
That must be hard.

Ever been in a long relationship? if so, how long?
Yes and it lasted TOO long for what it was.

What's something you really want right now?
Some peace of mind.

Scared To Sleep:

2009-07-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

Thoughts?
-Driving.
-I hate the heat.
-I really want a job
-I took a good nap today.
-My ear hurts.
-Out of my element.
-Whatever makes you happy.
-I wish you'd be as willing.
-New crowd.
-I had a nightmare...
-It was awful.
-I thought about it all day.
-I can't say what I want.
-No call...
-I don't want to go to sleep.
-Dad.
-Mom.
-Little brother.
-Recyclables.
-Home.
-Please try to understand.
-There's a lot you still don't know.
-Everyone's expecting us to fall apart.
-Too selfish to realize how happy we are.
-It's not what they expect.
-So it must be wrong.
-And I say...grow up...and just leave us alone.

Bigger Than You've Ever Done It:

2009-07-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

1. Overslept.
2. Cleaned.
3. Boyfriend.
4. Aloha.
5. Scary movie.
6. Cooked dinner.
7. Frank&Son
8. Target.
9. Ross.
10. Home.

Tomorrow:
1. Puente Hills Mall in the morning.
2. Job Hunting.
3. [?] Afterwards.

Dear person,

I don't know who you are, and I don't care to find out. I just know that I don't like what you're doing, so grow a brain and stop trying to be cute. We are not amused. Thank you and fuck off :]

Well You Know:

2009-07-21T22:41:00.001-07:00

WE REALLY DGAF

He doesn't comment me on myspace anymore.

Hello World:

2009-07-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THIS BOY:

Hello again friends, readers, and random people who look at my blog. Today was my first day hanging out with the boyfriend since I left for Vegas last week. Oh my, it was great to finally see him. He picked me up from my house to head back over to his place. I helped him paint his room cause that was on my To Do list...although he did most of the work and I just played with his niece and nephew. Hah. After 2 hours of labor, the room was half way done and it looked pretty superb. So we went out and got some Yosh, beef bowl regular for me while baby got the combo. We watched a little bit of Scary Movie Three while we were grubbin. After that we took a well desereved nap then woke up, jammed on the guitar, and chilled for a bit. At around 8 something, I had to go home so he dropped me off and now I'm here, tired, but happy despite a rather frustrating weekend. A brief summary of how my day went, wonderful as always.

My Silly Little Muse:

2009-07-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Looking back
To see if there was
Something I missed
Old photographs
Proof that the memories exist
Half trying...
Half waiting to be saved,
Fighting hard,
Pushing on,
Giving in to stay sane
But if my world fell apart now
You'd be the peace I need
We make picture perfect babe...
Just you and me

Hey now, let me hold you

2009-07-19T17:47:00.001-07:00

It'll be okay...

Vegas has been pretty interesting...long lost relatives, performances, and booze [?] No, not me, but my brother, of all people got shitfaced in Vegas...whuda thunk? And when we set him down on the couch where he knocked out cold...he started singing beat it and love song by taylor swift in his sleep. It's amazing what a little bit of alcohol could do. I didn't have such a good night either cause I ate some bad pork chop and got ALL queezy...I know, digusting huh? Anyways, I'm supposed to be leaving later on tonight...finally! When I get back home I'm gonna knock out and stay in bed for two days straight...but not really...I'm tired though! I did so much running around and what not...it wasn't even as fun as I thought it would be...but it's okay. It's over now. I just can't wait to be back at home.

You Should Watch It:

2009-07-17T14:16:00.000-07:00

Oh Don't Make Me Laugh:

2009-07-16T20:03:00.001-07:00

I'm currently in Vegas and I'll be here till either Sunday or Monday. It's hot over here. I hate driving around because cops are hiding everywhere. Hm...the family renunion should be interesting. I'm performing in front of 200+ family members I've never met before. That should be fun? Right now I'm just chillin at the house, watching T.V. it's pretty boring. I watched Harry Potter though, it was good considering the fact that it was a three hour movie. I usually can't sit down for that long, but it was nice. Ahhh I miss people though :[

What What?

2009-07-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

Today was actually rather productive. I woke up early to go to the DMV. Then after that I went home where I made my mommy and me some brunch which included bacon, rice, and eggs...yum. I did some grocery shopping by myself, which I've never done before, but I found it to be quite refreshing. After I got what I needed, I headed over to Sineads...blah blah blah, hung out for a little bit then headed home to meet up with Silvia. I then proceeded to drive over to Citrus College so I can schedule my test and find out when registration starts. It was a rather long drive, but surprisingly I didn't get TOO lost. After that I went back to my house where my boyfriend showed up not too long after. Silvia left. Then I went to my boyfriend's house...it's our three month by the way...well, five months of "going out"...but three months being official boos :] Cute! Hm...anyways, we watched Changeling at his house which was a very long, very sad, but very interesting movie. After a few hours we headed back so my baby can get his backpack from his friend's house...then I went home where there was a nice big plate of Fettuccini Alfredo waiting for me. Ahh then I went to Vons to buy more soap so I can do laundry. Now I'm on the phone with my favoritest person in the world. WHEW! What a day. I loved it<3

Hardest To Tame:

2009-07-13T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hello readers, it's been a while since I posted up a legitamate blog. I guess I just haven't found the time to do so, which is funny because most of my days consist of sleeping. eating, and hanging out. It hasn't exactly been a productive summer, as I hoped it would be. So far all that's happened is that I got a job, which unfortunately didn't work out for me, so I quit and now finding a new one is a big pain in the ass. I applied for a few places here and there and got promised things that never really followed through, story of my life! But it's all good though. I'm loving summer.

Other than being jobless...my life has been pretty great for the most part. I've had some shitty days, but whatever...it happens to the best of us right? I'm just trying to take things easy. I don't want to get all stressed out and panicked like I usually do when things don't go according to plan. I've been blessed enough to get out of the state of mind I was in before this year and start fresh. I don't want to take this opportunity for granted. I'm telling you, I'm really looking forward to the future cause I've got so many big plans, I just can't wait to get started on them.

As I sit and think of what's to come, I can't help but look back at the many faces and events that got me to where I am now. It's amazing what change could bring. I've tossed all my regrets and now all I have are memories I can refer to as a bunch of lessons well learned.

Also, I would like to add that I miss my Marvyn terribly. Goodnight.

It's been TOO long:

2009-07-12T11:51:00.000-07:00

I still need to post more :]